Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Shall We Try This Again?

Ok, so once again, I am trying to get myself back into a place where I am writing on a regular basis. Unfortunately most writing that I do these days comes in 140 characters or less, or involves me reposting something from someone else on tumblr or facebook. So, with that in mind, I am going to try to get back into blogging more. I think that if I just allow myself to write, then maybe it will actually be of some benefit to me, if not immediately, then in the not too distant future.

Seeing as how the last entry that I made was in January, and that was hardly what you could call an entry, I thought that I could give a brief history of Adam in 3 paragraphs or less. Keep in mind that it is very late, and I am already half asleep:

Let's just jump into the main points that I would like to bring you up to speed on. First off, Work. I am still working at Ye Olde Soul-Sucking Non-Profit, working for a crazy lady and feeling like the corn in the piece of this that is on the bottom of this organization's shoe. Too graphic? Sorry, just trying to paint a picture here. I am just trying to convey how unappreciated I feel at the current job, both emotionally and financially The part of the job that I actually enjoy the most is the one week a year that my organization hosts it's yearly conference, where we go to a different city every year and manage an academic convention for the members of our organization. I am good at it, and I actually enjoy the running around and checking to make sure that people are enjoying themselves and that things are running smoothly. Perhaps I was a social coordinator on a cruise ship in a past life....... All that to say is, I have decided that I would like to pursue a "career"(/next job) in the hotel industry. Coordinating events at the hotel, etc. Working for a hotel, especially a chain, will give the opportunities to travel, possibly switching between properties in various places. Just the possibility makes me a little giddy.

Which brings me to my next point, travel. Aside from my trips for work (this year is was Albuquerque and Santa Fe, New Mexico, so much fun), I have not done a lot of traveling. Yes, I visit friends and family in various places in the country (4 places to be exact, Indiana, Illinois, Georgia, and New York), but I have yet to take an actual trip. I have never left the country at all, and I have yet to take a vacation that is just a vacation, not tied into visiting someone else. I want that to change within the next year. I plan to buy my passport by the end of August, and from there the sky is the limit. However, my fear of flying is definitely still in full swing, and could use some work.

And lastly, there's the aspect of romance. As of now, I don't have anything closely resembling any type of "love life". I have a guy in my building who I occasionally sleep with, however we both know that it's not going to turn into anything. Aside from that, unless we are counting random hookups (which are VERY few and VERY far between), it's been a pretty slow year. I mean, I love sex, I do, but I think that now more than anything I am looking for intimacy. Not Janet Jackson "Anytime, Any place" intimacy, but to feel chemistry with someone, and actually have it reciprocated. Now, although I do not think that I am in the right place mentally to be in a relationship (that's a whole other post...), it would be nice to just have that butterfly feeling again, you know? That feeling of uncertainty you can get when dealing with an unfamiliar situation, but the good kind, where the dread is replaced by giddy curiosity. Yeah, that would be nice.....

Well, I am a little sad that this turned out to be a kind of Debbie Downer kind of post, but it is a reflection of my current state, so maybe seeing it in type will inspire me to make more of an effort to snap the fuck out of it. Wish me luck.


(I am also going to make more of an effort to edit and proof my entries, so yay for that.)

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