it has been a long time since i last posted (this not having a working laptop sucks), and this entry is not going to be long either, sadly. I am at my sister's house for the 4th of July weekend, and I am having a great time hanging out with family and enjoying my life as it is right now. Me and "Green" are drifting apart somewhat quietly but I am making it my goal to take something from this experience. I cannot even begin to explain how I know that we are drifting or how I know that there IS something to learn from this, but just know that I am actually in a good enough place to know that I have made growth and I will not let my pessimism convince me of anything else. This may have something to do with me beginning my week with breaking my beloved smartphone (and essentially being cut off from the world to a degree) and punching a hole through the wall of my apartment (more of that story to come in a later entry). if you are sitting there thinking "what?! i didn't know that A-squared was capable of doing something like that", then let me reassure you, neither was I, until I did it. So, now with visions of me losing my security deposit on the horizon, I can say that i am ready for the next step in my life, and if it doesn't include a romantic interest, it at least inludes some self appreciation. Hope to get the chance to write again soon, and hopefully post a full entry. Bye!