I just wanted to give another post, you know, I should do at least one a day. Anyway, I wanted to talk about being a black gay man. Now I know that alot of people are probably like "Oh god, he's gonna be one of those guys who just talks about how hard life is for him..." But NO i am not.
The thing about it is, there comes a time in every gay man's life where he may contemplate what his life would have been like if he hadn't come out of the closet. If he had chosen to stay in the closet, live a lie, or just not tell anyone that he's gay.
The reason why is because basically, at my school, alot of guys are gay, but they just don't tell anyone, and have secret sex, you know? It's like a secret underground butt-loving fraternity. Alot of them know eachother, hook up, get down, and then when they get back on campus they are Mr. Straight guy. Now I have two problems with this:
1. Not gonna lie, the prospect of the posibility of hot sex with the guys you didn't know were gay can be tantalizing
2. If you are not out of the closet, don't make fun of the openly gay boys!
That gets on my nerves soooo much! Like I understand that you are not able to openly embrace who you are and be proud, but don't shit all over those who can!
I love it when I see a guy who has the confidence to wear a fabulous shirt and skin tight pants and riding boots. And to top it off with a fabulous tote bag.
When it all comes down to it, I think to myself...... Hell No!
I love being gay, I love being out about it, and no matter how much secret sex I could have, I wouldn't trade being able to kiss my boyfriend in public, or lay with him in the park for anything.
Whoever you are out there, just be happy with yourself. Don't spend all of your time trying to keep up some persona, because it's gonna damage you on the inside, and pretty soon that shell is gonna crack, and then what are you left with? Not a damn thing.... Later